'How can you endure it?' That was often the question  from my family and friends'.  My answer was. 'What do you think I should do?  Should I jump into the harbour or what? "My husband had contracted a chronic disease in 1999, a year from that he received medical treatment, and his personality changed completely in the following years. Later came the psychiatric condition, and as time passed, everything seemed to have been my fault and I had to endure reproach every day. In August 2006 he asked me to disappear from his life.  He could not endure to live with me. I could not understand it. We had been together for 24 years and had a wonderful life until disease changed everything.  I did not know my husband anymore, felt that I had lost control and the grip on my life. In the spring of 2007 my sister died. This unexpected death drained the last energy out of me.

I am 52 years old. I am taking an education as a nurse and will finish that in a few months. I have always wanted to work as a nurse and was very pleased with the education, but as the grief because of my sisters death came on top of the stress-full last year with a sick man, I completely lost the spark. I could not concentrate on either reading or writing, and I felt, as mentioned earlier, that I had lost control of everything.
One day my niece told me about one of their friends who had been using a kinesiologist to get through a serious crisis. I was doubtful.  How can it help me, I thought. My life and my problems would remain the same. Noone could change that, but I was becoming desperate and I was willing to try something, which I did not really even think could change anything for me.

Now I sit here 4 months after my first meeting with kinesiology and the Dawson Program. The circumstances in my life are still the same, but my life is different. I have been given tools to cope with daily adversity. My life has been cleared up and I have gained a deeper understanding of what and why something knocks me down.  I have regained my self-confidence and feel now, that I again have control over my life. The energy is back, and I have dared to make major decisions that have changed my life and that I did not believe possible half a year ago. My concentration is back in place and my studies are going well.